Random Musings
On everything from parenting to politics to tea cups.
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Lessons Learnt
from something as implacable as grief There is a reluctance in me to write. Rather baffling, given that writing provides me more relief and clarity than any other form of therapy. Often, I don’t even understand what I am feeling or thinking, until I write it all down. Part of my writing journey is to… Continue reading
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Take Grief Out of The Closet
(This was a post shared on my Substack account in July 2024.) I want to write about something that has been bothering me for a while. Elizabeth Stone had said, ‘Making the decision to have a child – it is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your… Continue reading
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Grateful, even for the grief
Two years… [Originally published on Paper Dreams on 6th July 2024] How does one measure the passage of time? Do we measure it in units of months, days, hours and seconds, or in units of learning. If the former, then it has been two years since Sakshi left her mortal body for more eternal shores.… Continue reading
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Healing
A post about my journey towards healing and completeness. [Originally published on Paper Dreams on 4th June 2024] I don’t think anyone gets it. No one can, unless they have walked this path. How with a Herculean effort you gather yourself and stitch together the severed pieces, only to have it all fall apart in… Continue reading
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18…
Moving forward with Sakshi in our hearts. [Originally published on Paper Dreams on 27 October, 2023] 18th birthdays are special. A child’s transition into adulthood… at least on paper. Our particular conundrum is, how do you celebrate your child’s 18th, when she has already transitioned on to bigger things. Sakshi’s batch mates have spread their… Continue reading
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Almost a Year!
It is almost a year. In the last one year, time has flown, crawled, and downright stopped! I can count on one hand the number of times I have been away from her, since she was born. The longest was for five days, that one time when I went on a trek. And here I… Continue reading
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An Update…
It has been more than three months since I last posted anything out here. A lot has happened since that post. I have lived a lifetime and died a million deaths. Over the last few months, I had shared glimpses of my daughter’s and our journey as she fought a rare and aggressive sarcoma called… Continue reading
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The Statue
Walking had become a pleasure again. The sun was gentler, and the breeze cooler. My hip did not feel tight anymore and I could swing my right leg without that twinge and ache in my bones. It also took less effort each morning to talk myself into getting ready to head out for the walk,… Continue reading
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Paper Dreams
Hello dear readers, Silly of me to address you guys as my dear readers given that I have not posted anything out here for anyone to read for a while. I have used the break to complete the first draft of my very first novel, A River’s Love Song. I am now working on the… Continue reading
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A Quay in Girvin
Something powerful a monster roiling underneath. The waves of Girvin speak a tongue deeper than any I have seen. It speaks not for ears but for the beating heart and the soul that churns within Hypnotic… the waves rise invitingly resisting the pull of ancient primitive forces that call me from deep within. I think… Continue reading
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